Saturday, August 13, 2011

My Head Hurts

Wow if someone would have told me how hard being a Mom of 3 was I probably would have never believed them. Why is it that being a Mom 24/7 makes you feel like you are failing every day?

I have No time..I mean NO time. I am always behind on Laundry,Housework,Summer Reading sight words with my 6 year old,everything.

Everyone tells me that I need to go out and do something for myself, and I did go see a play with one of my dear friends .. We stayed out pretty late and ya know what I am still recovering from being out. I am more sleep deprived,I am behind on laundry and the grocery shopping day was off. I am Constantly trying to catch up,it was fun going out ,but was it worth it? All the stress when I get back home?

My life is not about me or my needs ..It does not matter if I enjoy what I am eating for Dinner or weather or not I even sit down for a meal. I am just barely making it every day . It does not matter what I want to do,it's what needs to be done and what my children Need. I go take my children to places that they will have fun at (Kids Museum,Zoo,) even if it means total chaos. Life right not is not about me enjoying a leisurely walk through the Zoo looking at the animals and reading their stats..Its making it through the Zoo ..making sure everyone one eats and stays hydrated then loading up all the gear and un -loading.

do NOT get me wrong I would not change having 3 Kids for the world...just tell me when will this get easier? Thank You for reading my vent and keep me in your prayers ,because I am barely treading water right now!

1 comment:

Helene said...

Oh, Carly, I just want to give you a big ole hug right now! I saw your comment on my blog and came right over!

I understand completely what you're going through. Everyone says take time for yourself but there are consequences for are SO right. Even now, if Tim tells me to take off for an hour or two to go shopping by myself, sometimes I won't even bother because the mess I have to deal with when I get home is just not worth it to me!

Here's a link to a post I wrote a little while back that sometimes I read when I'm feeling overwhelmed and stressed.

I know you're just doing everything you can to keep treading water and not get sucked under completely. You're in survival mode, just doing whatever you can do to keep the kids happy and entertained. There came a point, too, where I had to get us out of the house during the day even if it meant complete and utter chaos just because I wanted them to be happy.

Do you have any friends closeby who have kids? If so, maybe a playdate at a park or one another's homes on a weekly basis. That will give you something to look forward to each week. The kids will have fun, and you'll have another mommy or two to chat with and get some encouragement and support.

A friend of mine and I recently started trading back and forth when we each have to run errands, we'll watch each other's kids. She got the horrible part of the bargain, though, because I have FOUR kids and she only has two but still. Just knowing my kids are safe and happy, I'm getting to run my errands for an hour or two without dragging them along with me...I just feel so accomplished when it's all done. Like if I do nothing else that day, at least the shopping got done or the movies got returned or whatever it was that had to be get done.

Oh and not sure if you've heard about MOPS but if not, definitely check them out. I'm sure you have one in your area...or, if not, perhaps something closeby. Childcare is provided right there on site and the meetings are 2 hours each week. You get together with other moms with kids the same age as yours and it's such an awesome place to find encouragement, friendship and support. I went for 2 years and LOVED it! Not only for the free childcare but also for the support I received. Just hearing another mom confess that sometimes she cries herself to sleep out of nothing but pure exhaustion made me feel human!!

Hang in there....I know it's hard. If you EVER need to chat, please don't hesitate to e-mail me helene1108 (at) yahoo (dot) com or I'll be happy to give you my phone number! It's not like we both have hours on end to talk but sometimes just knowing there's a live person on the other end of the line even if it's just for 5 minutes can help you get through a tough day!