Friday, July 9, 2010

Depression During Pregnancy

I had postpartum depression with my first son. It was a awful experience that still saddens me to this day. I wish I could have enjoyed those first few weeks of my sons life,but instead felt a sensation of uncontrollable anxiety and sadness. I soon went on medication and stayed on it for over a year. I was nervous about getting Depression again when pregnant with my second son. I was well prepared to watch and look at myself often to try to catch 1st signs of it creeping into my life. I knew that I would want to get on medication right away, because the lows of the depression are so low that I never want to experience that again. I never had postpartum depression with my second Son. It never happened. Maybe it is because I breastfeed him exclusively till he was 6 Months old? (they say it produces good hormones in your brain) I never had to take medication or have the sadness enter my life. I am currently 26 weeks pregnant with Baby #3. The Ultrasound said that this Baby is a Little Girl and I have always wanted a Little Girl so I am excited about that. However I have been battling some depression during Pregnancy this time around. It makes me nervous that it could turn into something else. I feel like I should be over the moon Happy right now ,but I am not. I have lost interest in many things. I Normally love to scrapbook and I have no desire to do that. I normally Love Blogging ,but have no desire to Blog about my life. I also take lots of pictures of my children ,and I have not had the desire to break out the camera. This poor Baby only has like 1 Belly Picture. I have no desire to try to get together with my friends and plan something to do. I am kinda just living. I am exhausted most of the day ,but when bedtime rolls around I am wide awake. I am hoping that this passes. I have never dealt with Depression During Pregnancy before. I am taking care of myself and just trying to get through this one day at a time. I will talk to someone if it gets worse. Right now I am hoping that all the Hormones in my body will level out and I will feel better in a week or so and that this is just a bad Funk. I almost do not even want to blog about this....maybe part of me is a little embarrassed letting people know about my life, but this is is what is going on with me in my life right now .

7 comments:

Tegan and Tage said...

Friend, that is life. The reality is it isn't all positive, and we all face our own issues. Saying a prayer for you right this moment. Enjoy those little ones and I'm sure this "funk" will pass. Don't compare this pregnancy to the other two, they are all different. Besides, isn't it the third child's lot in life to only have like three pictures of them in the family albums? :)

Colton's Mommy said...

You should not feel ashamed or embarssed at all. It is just hormones that we women have and sometimes they get out of whack!! I never experienced depression while I was preganany nor after either, but I have had bouts here and there and I know that hiding it doesn't help and talking about it does. There are plenty of women that feel the same way you do and can probably offer alot of support and understanding.

Amber Liddle said...

Yep, we're in funks right now aren't we?? It's exhausting work making a human and then dealing with the other ones we already have!! Here's to smoother sailing in the coming months :)

Momma Such said...

I think it is great that you are blogging about this because you are getting it off of your chest as well as letting others know that it can happen and it is normal. I get depressed from time to time. There are some people in my life that I think don't help and often times make things worse, but you just need to try to relax, rest and surround yourself with happiness. Maybe you could do something for yourself? Go buy a new outfit (that always makes me feel a little better.) Get a pedicure? Get a massage? Go to lunch with a friend or your hubby with no kids? I think getting out and doing something for yourself could help. Just be sure to try to stay positive and don't coop yourself up away from everyone and everything. The worst is when you hide and the fact that you are talking to us is great! Be sure to tell your doc how you are feeling.
If you ever need to talk I'm here! :)

Big Hugs!

Melissa said...

Sharing it is one way to work through it. I hope you get to feeling better and enjoy this pregnancy! I will keep you in my thoughts:)

Lisa said...

I was depressed during my first pregnancy, too, though not after. And I'm worried about it next time around too, because I'll have a toddler running around to care for. Thank you for sharing your journey, and just know you're not alone!

natalee said...

My dear friend i was thinking about you... hope you are well..hang in there.. hugs!!!