Friday, July 9, 2010
Depression During Pregnancy
I had postpartum depression with my first son. It was a awful experience that still saddens me to this day. I wish I could have enjoyed those first few weeks of my sons life,but instead felt a sensation of uncontrollable anxiety and sadness. I soon went on medication and stayed on it for over a year. I was nervous about getting Depression again when pregnant with my second son. I was well prepared to watch and look at myself often to try to catch 1st signs of it creeping into my life. I knew that I would want to get on medication right away, because the lows of the depression are so low that I never want to experience that again. I never had postpartum depression with my second Son. It never happened. Maybe it is because I breastfeed him exclusively till he was 6 Months old? (they say it produces good hormones in your brain) I never had to take medication or have the sadness enter my life. I am currently 26 weeks pregnant with Baby #3. The Ultrasound said that this Baby is a Little Girl and I have always wanted a Little Girl so I am excited about that. However I have been battling some depression during Pregnancy this time around. It makes me nervous that it could turn into something else. I feel like I should be over the moon Happy right now ,but I am not. I have lost interest in many things. I Normally love to scrapbook and I have no desire to do that. I normally Love Blogging ,but have no desire to Blog about my life. I also take lots of pictures of my children ,and I have not had the desire to break out the camera. This poor Baby only has like 1 Belly Picture. I have no desire to try to get together with my friends and plan something to do. I am kinda just living. I am exhausted most of the day ,but when bedtime rolls around I am wide awake. I am hoping that this passes. I have never dealt with Depression During Pregnancy before. I am taking care of myself and just trying to get through this one day at a time. I will talk to someone if it gets worse. Right now I am hoping that all the Hormones in my body will level out and I will feel better in a week or so and that this is just a bad Funk. I almost do not even want to blog about this....maybe part of me is a little embarrassed letting people know about my life, but this is is what is going on with me in my life right now .