Ugggg!!!

We are planing to move real soon. We are trying to move in a better neighborhood with better Schools since Monkey boy will be in Kindergarten next year. Where we live now the schools are not that good. They are not bad, but not good. When we moved here we fell in love with the house and Monkey boy was 2 mo. old we didn't even think about schools. I would love to send my son to a private Catholic based school, but we cannot afford that right now, and affording 2 in a private school is out of the question for us at this time in our lives. Maybe some day , but not now. So lately we have been looking at houses, and we definitely have to give up some things in order to get other things. One house we like is a independent house, but is in a subdivision that does your lawn and shoveling, so you do not really have a back yard. With in the complex there is a park like 5 houses down. So the sad thing will be that we will have to give up our swing set. If we cannot take the swing set with us we will give it to some dear friends. I will miss my boys wooden swing set and the time we spend in the backyard, but with a park that I can see out my back door maybe this will not be so bad. Also the house does not have a finished basement, I'm use to our nice finished basement. Moving is hard for me. I moved a lot as a child, and I really like the idea of staying in one house forever. Staying in this house is not a option. We have to move. I know this is going to be hard for me . I will miss this house and all the memories I have off it. I know I need to move forward with this, but its so hard. We are not sure if we are getting this house yet. We put in a offer ,but are not sure. So a lot is on my mind lately, I wish I could just blog about diapers that I love, but my mind is so preoccupied with this move.